An exclusive one !!!

Hi,

Read below for an "exclusive" write up by Mr. Jain, K.K. written to Ms. Jain, G.

Well to start with, I must confess that never before in life I have been so confused with words or better to say short of words, not even at the times when I used to be silent!!!

With almost everyone I know, I have been as frank and as clear as possible to make myself understood the right way but that at times have caused certain problems, but with you it is just different. I do know that there is not going to be much of the misunderstanding or any of the problems that can't be taken care of but then I just loose out on words!!!

Probably because it is not face to face or may be because at times I am skeptical or somewhat scared a bit buy the question what if …?? Or may because it is this way only or may be I have gone insane… I just don't know!!!

Believe it or not I just disliked talking on the phone and still I will, I despised people asking me about the daily routine and vice versa but we kind of do it everyday and I do enjoy it, I hated people SMSing me and now I wait for it. And now I feel God save me as at times I feel either I am on the cloud nine or up there!!!

And well you must know (somewhat of course as I myself don't know how it all occurred) how it all started on my side (That reminds me of the mail I sent around 3 year ago, well a long before we started chatting) but the fact is even before that we (family) had discussed you sometimes at home, and was always curious to know that who the hell is she that everyone keeps praising about and I damn don't even know. And when you didn't reply of that mail I thought either I have mailed to someone else or this girl doesn't check mails (Well I wonder that I didn't get angry, probably because of your reputation!!!) And then the chatting did worked wonderfully I guess. Well that is very brief but to discuss Tammo at this point would be unfair to all three of us, and that I leave for times to come, sometime we surely should.

Well, I think I could have written better and somewhat more interesting!!! But then what I write is what my heart wants to speak J. And this one surely must be an exclusive one!!!

Enjoy Life, have a great day, and beautiful times around, with Lotz of colors in Life!!!

Luv u a Lot :*:*

KK

Alive !!!

Well it is been long !!! Really long i feel, when i had this habit of writing ... and i feel probably because i moved out of college.... and was left with searching for new friends in new place to spend time and now i kind of feel they will meet when they have got to...just relax... !!!!

So all i am doing now a days usually is meeting old friends at weekends who stay in NCR, doing some research at weekdays and of course luckily playing football.... have been planning to learn cooking since January this year...but till date have learned to make "paranthas" only.

It is fun and comfort to be with family ( i stay with my loving and caring bro) but it is painful to be in college (i am in IITD now) and not be able to do what all you can do... such as roaming with friends meaninglessly, which was quite a great routine back in IITB for me. I hope things will change soon (well by January next year at last) and the life will be rocking again...!!!

Well.. i am back !!!

Hmm...it is been long since i had written last time !!! And what an eventful time that period have been which consisted of following significant events in order :

1. Completion of my Dual Degree Course at IIT Bombay and therefore departure from IITB


2. Joining at marketRX for my first Job, In Gurgaon (Delhi)


3. IITB Convocation 2007 at which i was awarded President Silver Medal by Mr. L.N.Mittal


4. Deepawali at home after 6 long years ..:)


5. Brother's engagement


6. Resignation from my first job


7. And Last but not the least Delhi's winter season


8. In line to join at IIT Delhi for Ph.D.

So keep checking as i wish to write about each of the above mentioned in coming times. till then have fun and keep in touch..:)

All that i learnt in 5 Years in IIT ...:P

Too often i don't realize
what i dun have until i need it ;
Too often i am too late to say
"It's u'r mistake and u must feel soory about it"
Sometimes it seems i try to hurt the ones
i must not even care for to get hurt;
And sometimes i allow things to happen
that brings in unneccesary hopes.

very few times i let
important things into my mind;
And then it's usually not much of light
to see what made me bright.

I wanna be sure that i appreciate
everything i have achieved;
And wanna be thankful for the all the events
in life that have taught me all this !!

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Thanx Tapan... u must get what title means...:)

Relations and Me ...!!!

As a kid i was a very adorable one, one with whom everybody enjoyed be it older or be the kids of same age group. I used to be a person who enjoyed having quite gud relationship with everyone i came across to . But times changed and so did the persons around me and so did i and today i know, not surely for better when it comes to relationships.

When i moved to Kota for studies, i met different type of persons. Persons who will stand by you but only if u can stand to their expectations. So there i learnt that most of the relationships are nothing but just a business though unobserved for all and an unusual one for me. So i started being a person who was very selective in making or maintaining relations. Till then it was right as i was also busy with my acads and never really cared for persons to stand by me as i was a self gratified person.And thanks to some really great friends who let me realize that it is all about understanding rather than the word "Relation".

Then i moved to Mumbai to pursue my engineering, first day at college and i knew choices to make new relations are quite less as i wasn't half as good as other guys were and everyone expects something better. And that didn't help, so i started developing in to a introvert kind of person and then as time passed by, life and persons i had lived up to all expectations of started disappointing to me , the word "Relation" lost it shine. And i came across to persons i had such great understanding with that i wudn't hesitate to take any decision of them for me.

Today i neither have any "Relations" nor any of the long lasting emotions with anyone, all i have with others is understanding which is always at the same level with certain person and i know there are not many with whom level is above my expectations. People say i am not gud at relations and i say relations have never been to me. Whatever it is, i am quite happy with the way i interact with people though sometimes my expectations are too high a barrier but then not always u gain in business!!!

Loneliness ...from my point of view !!!

Some people have asked me this question several times that "Why you like to be lonely most of the times while you have so many good companions to walk with" and i always replied with a smile or some odd reason. The fact is that to me walking alone or being with no one doesn't mean loneliness.

I feel that loneliness is not in walking without having someone on your side, But you are alone when you stand with the people who can not understand you exactly the way u want them to, you are alone when everybody around you is talking and you can still feel the silence, you are in solitude when u stand with the people to whom u need to give a reason for everything u do.

And that is the reason i avoid being in groups where i can create misunderstandings, the reason i prefer one on one relationships, and of course the reason because of which i prefer to "Walk Alone "...!!!

Destiny !!!!

When i thought of the past,
i felt it is just like yesterday.
what is ambitions as of now,
will be destiny some day.

As it always have been in the past
everything i have achieved is,
something for, i had worked really hard
but then destiny took all the credit.

I was left wondering that
whether it is really something different or,
nick to the efforts i put for the work
that i had done in the past.

Today i face the same ground
searching for the answers from the past,
whether my future is my destiny or
it is paycheck for good work of past.